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THE LADY
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Sunday, January 31, 2010
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LET IT ALL OUT.
HEY EARTHLINGS.
I'm blogging now, coz i wanna let out what i feel inside.
I can't let it out in facebook, since some people's like tracking down my statuses.
I hate this feeling. I'm being controlled in everything.
Even now, i couldn't post it in facebook.
I'm scared that it might fell to my parents ears.
I'm lucky to have a blog.
*sighs*
Bro, what you've said just now really hurts me alot.
You don't realise it, don't you?
I've been giving in to you all these while.
I put aside all my wants, just to let you to have what you want first.
Yes, i've been doing that since small.
I did that till i know i couldn't get all my wants.
But nevermind, as long you're happy, i'm okayy.
But what you said just now, really leave a great cut in my heart.
Same goes to you mum.
I loved you, but you don't seem to have any confidence at me at all.
I seriously hated the way you compared me and my friends.
Yes, they're far way better and smarter than me.
I'm not jealous over them at all, coz that is God's gift for them.
In fact, i'm happy to call them my friends.
But me? I too want to lead a better life, but you didn't give me a chance.
How am i suppose to continue living? Tell me.
Can i scream?
Arrgghh!
Goodnight readers.
Saturday, January 30, 2010
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WORK HARD, PLAY HARD.
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HEY EARTHLINGS.
Work for today was okayy.
Did PR project at work with Farah, since our presentation will be either on next Wednesday or Thursday.
Made some changes to it, since we want the presentation to go smoothly, without making any mistakes.
One mistake, that's it. Gotta struggle to answer teacher's questions.
I swear, I hate totally hate that part the most.
Seeing the other classmates who did their presentation and the way teacher asked them questions really gave my groupmates and me the goosebumps.
Oh God, I hope everything runs well. Insyallah.
Shafeeq bro came to our site just now, since he got the day off, permitted by our manager.
Chatted, and we waited for the players to finish their game which was around 6pm.
Then came 2 men. They played, and their ball went into the school compound.
We were not suppose to let them in, as stated in the rules.
I goota say these foreigners are really smart.
One of them went back home, which was nearby to the field, and took a long pole just to take their ball.
Shafeeq bro helped them. There were funny moments.
Hahaha.
After taking their ball, Farah suggested that we play soccer with them since there was 15 minutes left.
So, the 5 of us played soccer.
It was damn fun!
Farah, Shafeeq and me played barefooted as we didn't find it comfortable playing with slippers.
Hahaha.
We sweated a lot. I got to burn my fats.
Haha.
If i can do this for every weekend, i'll lose a lot of weight.
Plus there's S&W on every Monday.
3 days of sports. I like!
Hahaha.
Maybe i can improve on my soccer skills, with the help of the players.
Hahaha.
Shafeeq and Farah suggested to bring jersey and boots since they wanna play again tomorrow.
See how first. But i would love to. Haha.
I need to search for 3 quarter shorts.
I can't possibly run around in front of men with shorts right?
Haha.
Okayy people. I'm feeling super tired actually.
I'm done with blogging. Now i need to check my facebook.
Goodnight earthlings.
Saturday, January 23, 2010
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NO MORE 20 SEN!
I would like to wish this clique of mine on the left, Siti Hidayu, a HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY!
Ayu dah tak main 20 sen. Sekarang dah main 2 dollars.
Pricing dah up sikit.
Haha!
Anyway, may you have a blast on your birthday aite.
May Allah bless you always yeah. (:
Friday, January 22, 2010
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SINGAPORE FLYER.
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HEY EARTHLINGS.
Outing to Singapore Flyer with the Business Admin people just now was great and fun.
It was raining heavily in the morning. Farah and me were caught in the rain.
We weren't that wet, thanks to Farah's sweater. Except for our shoes, which was damn wet.
Haha.
Reached school around 8 plus, and waited for our bus.
Upon reaching the Flyer, everyone of us were like "jakun" people.
First time going on Flyer what.
Haha. Lucky us to get free ride. Skola bayar.
Haha!
Went in the capsule with the usual cliques and some other classmates.
Took lots of pics in there. V and Sheeda's camera were the victims.
Hahaha.
Lots of people believed that when reaching the highest level of the Flyer, one should make a wish.
So, we made a wish. Mine's a secret yeah.
Haha.
It wasn't even a 30 minute ride though. For me laa.
For others, i don't know. Haha.
I would love to go on Flyer at night.
I wanna see the night life.
But i know it wouldn't come true.
After the ride, had lunch at Popeye's.
And again, i didn't eat.
This time round, i wasn't alone.
Hydayu joined in my club. She couldn't find any ATM machine there.
Haha!
But thanks to the lovelies for sharing the food with me and Hydayu.
Appreciate it though. (:
Since it was a one-way transport, we've got no choice but to go home by ourselves.
Walked to Esplanade with V and the usual gang.
But we bid goodbye to Sheeda, Hydayu and Nad at esplanade since they wanna slack there first.
So, train-ed home with Farah and V instead.
I bumped onto my bed when i reached home.
Damn tired sia.
Got some sleep for 2 hours, which after that i followed mum to buy some groceries at Yew Tee Point.
Was feeling damn lethargic the whole day.
Okayy readers.
I've updated about the outing to Singapore Flyer.
Will update again soon okayy.
Goodnight readers.
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
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SIGNS?
SIGNS ON DEPRESSION:
You can’t sleep or you sleep too much.
You can’t concentrate or find that previously easy tasks are now difficult.
You feel hopeless and helpless.
You can’t control your negative thoughts, no matter how much you try.
You have lost your appetite or you can’t stop eating.
You are much more irritable and short-tempered than usual.
You have thoughts that life is not worth living.
Only my best buddies know me the best.
What do you think, friends?
I've got the answer for myself.
Goodbye readers.
Sunday, January 17, 2010
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AGONY.
Can you return me the smile that once i had like the photo on the left?
I really wonder. What do you people want and expect from me?
Do all of you realise that you're letting me live in agony?
Well. I guess all of you don't realise it, don't you?
I'm totally sick and tired.
Yes! I'm tired.
I'm tired of following your instructions, which sometimes doesn't have any meaning at all.
The way you people control me, is really making me more stressed each and every single day.
You people could just embarass me in front of my friends and others.
Remember, i do have feelings.
I ain't a statue which stands in front of you.
For God's sake, i'm going to turn 20 in 4 months time.
I know it's not a big deal for you, but it is for me.
Treat me like an adult will you? I'm not a 10-year old child anymore.
I understand that it's a way of showing that you people love me.
But give me some leniency will you?
And yes, i'm typing all this with tears rolling down my cheeks.
What's the use of staying under one roof, but there's no understanding at all?
Sometimes i wish to use the wrong way.
I really couldn't stand it anymore.
I'm sorry readers, but i'm just pouring out everything i feel. :(
Goodnight.
*You told me once you wouldn't leave me, but you did it in the end. Where were you when i was alright? Tell me, did you even know that i was alright? And you left me thinking that i'll be alright.*
Thursday, January 14, 2010
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RANDOM & CONFESSION.
HEY EARTHLINGS.
Time checked: 10.10 pm
Brother's not at home.
He's away for camp at Discovery Centre.
Bro said this before going, "Location merepek seh. Confirm boring punya."
But he just called home, saying that he's enjoying himself over there.
Sheesh!
You shouldn't go there. You should be at home, going to the shop for me when i ask you to.
Now, i'm hungry. Kan susah takda org nak belikan benda untuk aku.
Okayy, sounds like i'm taking advantage of him eh.
I'm not like this always okay. Only sometimes.
It's my turn to boss him, since he used to do that to me.
WHAT GOES AROUND, COMES BACK AROUND.
I always emphasize on that.
Hehehe.
School was okay laa for today.
Nothing special, all boring lessons.
There will be AOFA common test tomorrow.
Test will be on Microsoft Word, Table.
Like again. *sighs*
I think i've done enough practices in school.
Think only eh. Thumbs up ah Hana.
Hahaha.
Will keep fingers crossed for tomorrow.
I was totally pissed off over something just now.
It's about work.
Got a complaint by the school OM which Farah and me works for.
My blood rushed up when i heard the whole complaint.
Listen, whatever position you're holding, that doesn't give you the right to accuse people without having any proof okayy?
Tak puas hati, pergi tengok tu CCTV or whatever things you have there.
One more time, if there's any complaint from you, you'll surely get it from us.
Get this straight in your head! Understood?!
Okayy people. Aku dah penat nak marah-marah.
Buat darah aku naik jer.
I'm signing off now.
Goodnight people.
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
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DEDICATION.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
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LETHARGIC.
HEY EARTHLINGS.
Woke up at 9am just now, since school starts at 1pm.
Awakened by mum actually, since she wanted to go for her religious class and asked me to lock the gate.
By the time i went back to my bed, i couldn't put myself to sleep again.
So i used the lappy to check my facebook and other stuffs.
Had PR lesson first. I swear i was perspiring even when i was inside the class.
It was effing hot!
I bought Blueberry Tea, and i told Farah this, 'Aku rasa 1 botol mcm tak cukup.'
Walao. For the first time, i wanna drink 2 bottles of Blueberry tea!
Sheesh!
After that, came the boring lesson, AOFA.
V, Farah and me weere so pathetic that we didn't have seats in the computer lab.
Nevermind, i'm used to it actually. Hahaha.
So, mostly Farah and me spent the period wandering around in the lab.
Mcm orang takde kerja.
Haha!
Finished school at 5.
Went back with Farah and bro.
Farah and me were craving for Double Chocolate Frappe.
So we headed to McDonald's at Lot 1, together with bro.
Had Medium Double Chocolate Frappe, and treated brother McChicken.
Tak boleh belanja byk sangat untuk dia ni.
Nanti naik sedap jer.
Hahaha!
Reached home around 6.15pm.
Was feeling damn lethargic when i hopped onto my bed.
Took a shower first, and take dinner which was like being forced to.
Hahaha.
And now i'm feeling kind of sleepy.
But once i try to close my eyes, i'll start having difficulties in sleeping.
I've been having sleepless nights. :(
Too much things running in my mind.
Haiz.
Skipped supplements and medicines for 2 days.
*thumbs up*
I'll try not to let mum know about this.
Haha.
Reason? I don't feel any change at all.
I'm still the same old weak condition Hana.
*sighs*
Alright people.
Time for me to go.
Blog updated at 10.41pm.
Goodnight earthlings.
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Friday, January 8, 2010
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ON THE 8TH.
HEY EARTHLINGS.
School was okay just now.
Had PR lesson at 8am. Farah and me came just on time, when Mr Sunny was marking the attendance.
Phew!
Class ended at 9am, and headed to the canteen.
Had some catching up with the LTO brothers first.
After that off to Republic Polytechnic's open house.
Walked around, browsed the courses there.
None of them attracted me, except for the Sports courses.
Haha.
Mrs Cheong was standing next to me, and she said this "Farhana, take Hospitality. Only require 2 pointer."
Sheesh! I ain't interested in Hospitality course at all.
Moreover, i'm not gonna continue my studies to polytechnic.
But one thing that i'm happy about is, my GPA could bring me to polytechnic.
I didn't expect that.
Haha.
Left RP about an our later.
Usual cliques went back home.
Only left Farah, V, Saleha, Ashley and me.
Accompanied the girls to deposit their cash at Woodlands Civic, and chatted with Farah about something.
Babe, i've given my idea about your problem.
It's your decision, whether you wanna try that or not.
But my advice to you is, just give it a try aite. (:
The babes decided to have their lunch at Pizza Hut at Causeway Point.
Unforunately, i ran out of cash.
At first, i decided to accompany them only.
But these lovelies yang baik hati dan tidak sombong treated me to Pizza Hut.
Thanks ladies! I appreciate it a lot. (:
We camwhored there. Hehe.
After lunch, it was lepak-ing session outside Civic.
And that was the time that we chatted about family and relationships.
Everyone voiced out their opinions.
It's good to have time like this. Everyone voicing out their problems and solutions.
Good sharing session indeed. (:
Changed location to McDonald's, since Farah and Saleha wanted to buy Double Chocolate Frappe.
Played the game "Truth". It was V's idea.
Haha.
I must say that the questions asked by Saleha to me were good ones.
It took some time for me to answer that.
I'll never forget those questions.
Went back around 4pm, since Ashley's gotta work.
Home sweet home, got changed and went online for a while.
Chatted with AJ bestie.
Bestie, one advice for you, you really gotta be strong in this situation aite.
Alright readers.
I've posted quite enough already.
That's all for today.
Will be back updating soon.
Goodnight earthlings. (:
Friday, January 1, 2010
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NEW YEAR
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HAPPY NEW YEAR EARTHLINGS. (:
It's the starting of a brand new year.
May 2010 bring us good yeah.
Insyallah.
I didn't set new resolutions for this year.
Still sticking to the previous one.
It's yet to be accomplished.
Haha.
Started the new year by doing Public Relations project at Farah's house just now.
Alhamdulillah, we managed to do 3 questions, after cracking our brains.
We even took the dictionary out, in case we do not understand some of the "chim chim" words.
Semangat oi!
Haha!
There are still 5 more questions to go.
Shall do that in school with other fellow teammates.
Hopefully, i'll score for this module.
I want to score well for my last term in school.
Well, who doesn't want to?
Currently chatting with Farah and ex-schoolmate from Fitness Training, Solihin.
The death of the Avenged Sevenfold drummer, Jimmy Sullivan has been an issue for Solihin.
Even his personal message in MSN is all about the drummer.
*slaps forehead*
Haha!
I need to accompany bro to cover up dad's work tomorrow at the field for a while.
Maybe after that will be going back home straight to iron my school uniform.
So that i won't rush doing all that on Sunday.
Only need to pack my stuffs for school the next day.
I'm looking forward for S&W time.
Sports again!
Girls, how about a game of soccer again?
Haha!
Alright people.
That's all for today.
Wanna have my beauty sleep now.
Haha.
Goodnight earthlings.
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