|
THE LADY
|
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
♥
ANOTHER 19TH.
Happy 19th Birthday to you Riswan! (:
At last, you've turned 19 uh?
You've only have one more year to enjoy teenage life.
Haha!
Aniway, stay happy always bestie! (:
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
♥
OH NO.
Results tomorrow.
Poly admission results a day later.
Oh my, oh my.
I'm totally scared.
I'll be happy if my GPA improves.
But, i'll be totally devastated if i get into Republic Poly in Sports & Leisure Management.
My first choice course.
I guess, i'll have to give it a miss.
I know, i'm letting go a good opportunity.
But, i have no choice.
I have to sacrifice. :(
Toodles earthlings.
Monday, March 29, 2010
♥
NANA'S BIRTHDAY & GIRLFRIENDS OUTING.
HEY EARTHLINGS.
I'm back after not updating for few days.
Well, last week the secondary school girlfriends, Farah and I celebrated Nana's birthday at Hadah's crib.
Our plan was successful. Haha.
A bad day for me, as i was down with fever.
I didn't feel good actually, and almost cancel my plan to meet them.
But i changed my mind, as that was the only day for me to hang out with them.
So, eventually, i forced my way to CCK Inter and meet Farah.
I've to wait for her for about 15 mins.
As usual, she was late. -_-
The plan to surprise Nana was successful as she had no idea that Farah and me were supposed to be at Hadah's place too.
Haha.
Slacked at Hadah's crib first, then we were off for karaoke at Grandlink.
My first time being there, and it was great.
I had to sing as well, after being forced by Nana.
My voice was very hoarse.
Perfect to sing Male's part. -_-
Spent about 2 hours there and we went off to have our late lunch at Bugis.
Had chiken rice, after being forced again to eat by the others.
Nana was super damn frustrated as her fish porridge didn't turn out like a porridge.
It's actually fish with rice.
Right Nana?
She ended up eating my chicken rice as i didn't finish it.
Haha!
The girlfriends were being super sweet as usual to send me back home as i was sick, and of course to see whether there was a "drama" or not.
They spent the time watching the last episode of "The Pupil".
Kecoh-kecoh sesama sendiri eh.
I was like, "Eh korang, sorry eh kalau aku tertidur."
I really slept. -_-
By the time i woke up, my body was super hot and Nana gave me panadols.
But mum asked to go to the clinic.
Went there around 10 pm.
And yeah, i was down with high fever which has some kind of virus.
The doctor advised me to stay away from family and friends temporarily.
Sad case or what.
Now i'm recovering, except for the coughing part.
Sheesh! I hate it.
I need to get well soon.
There are some things i need to clear up with Farhan.
Yes, him. (:
Okayy people.
I'm off now.
Time now is 4.48pm.
Good day earthlings.
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
♥
I GIVE UP.
I wish i could kill myself right now.
I hate you people controlling me.
I've had enough of this.
I'm going 20, not a 2 year-old kid anymore.
I've been holding back my emotions everytime you decide for me about everything.
But now, i can't take it anymore.
I feel like crying and screaming my heart out.
It would make me feel 100 times better.
You just make your own decisions, without even knowing how i feel like.
Let me tell you people this, I MIGHT AS WELL NOT LIVE.
I feel like i'm living for other people, not for myself.
Now, i'm holding back my tears in front of you.
I'm destroying myself by doing this, yes i know.
I've been doing this for many many years.
There's always a limit to everything.
Don't ever compare me and your friends' kids.
Coz, i ain't like them.
I'm totally different from them.
You can't just assume that what she likes, is what i like too.
The bottom line is, I'M NOT HAPPY AT ALL, IF YOU ASK ME.
I GIVE UP!
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
♥
SHOCKING.
.gif)
HEY EARTHLINGS.
I'm still shocked over yesterday and today deaths.
In just 2 days, i've got to know about 3 deaths.
It's the first time i experience this, in my 19 years of life.
Yesterday was the death of my ex-classmate, Seri's grandma.
Followed by the death of an old neighbour's dad.
And today, the death of my old neighbour, who's only 31 years old after fighting with lung cancer for only 2 months.
It was really shocking when i got to know that she suffers from cancer, as she was looking healthy always to me.
A pity, i couldn't get to see her as i was at Seri's place to pay a visit and there was mourning prayers.
Only mum and the rest of the old neighbours were there to see her even before she close her eyes forever.
I wonder how her children will be from now onwards.
They're only 9 and 4 years old.
Too young to know anything, especially the youngest one.
How will they survive, without their mum around them?
I learnt something from this.
God can take lives, in just a blink of an eye.
Whether the person is healthy, or not.
It can happen anytime.
I've been thinking about it.
I want my loved ones to be healthy always.
Always be thankful to Allah.
For that, you will be put in a better place, insyallah.
Dear Allah, please protect my loved ones always.
Please protect the kids, now that their mother's gone to be with you.
Only to you, i can trust to take care of those kids.
Sesungguhnya, kau la Yang Maha Pangasih, dan Maha Penyayang.
Amin Ya Robbal Alamin.
Thursday, March 11, 2010
♥
THOSE TIMES..
I wish, i could have you back in my life.
I WISH I COULD.
Somehow, you managed to leave a great impact in my life.
You wanna know the reason why?
Because you were my first love, not the others.
You didn't know that, coz i didn't have the chance to tell you that, when we met and held hands for the last time.
You were one of my motivation when i was down, and you were always there for me when i needed you, but not anymore.
I lost you.
I've never felt this before.
You were my last one, but my first love.
Amazing right?
Never did i expect that my life would change when i knew you.
But i didn't blame you for all the things happened.
And you didn't even have the idea that i think and miss you everyday.
Only my closest ones know what i am like now.
Yes, i pretended to smile when i met you last week.
Coz i didn't want you to have any negative thinking about it.
I didn't want you to think that i'm desperate to get you.
No, that's not my way at all.
I'd rather keep my feelings to myself.
That's what i've been doing, and only God knows me well.
By seeing you, it has already make me happy.
I'm thankful to Allah, or letting me to meet you last week.
I just missed those times when you were in my arms, and always there to comfort me.
You always gave in to me.
Thank you for that.
I'll never forget everything.
Coz you've once made me happy.
Bila cinta tak lagi untukku, bila hati tak lagi padaku..
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
♥
GOODBYE.
HEY EARTHLINGS.
Finally, exam are done.
Alhamdulillah, i can do the Public Relations paper.
My efforts in studying last minute were not wasted at all.
Haha.
The duration of paper was 2 hours and 30 minues actually.
But i managed to finish it within 1 hour and 15 mins.
Seeing classmates walking off, i too decided to walk off rather than spending the whole 2 hours and 30 minutes in the classroom.
It was damn hot.
Collected the class fund and cleared the locker before the exam started.
Went to meet Mr Izan and Morgan in the PE Room with Farah while waiting for classmate, Saleha.
At the same time, Mr Azman was there too.
Chatted with the teachers for a while, and they were off to to some things.
So left me, Farah and Morgan.
Chatted about school and work.
After that, Farah and me left the room to do our last revision.
It's sad while clearing the locker you know.
I'll remember how we used to go up and down from classroom to locker to take our books.
And whenever i'm at my locker, i'll surely look up at BIT Lab 4.
That's the room where "he" will always be.
Memories. ):
After the exam, means it's the end of school for us.
Sad case, really.
Classmates and friends, this will not be the end of us.
Rest assured, we shall organise some outings together okayy?
I wonder it feels like in days to come.
I'll miss going to school.
I've yet to decide what to do about the uniforms.
Zaidah Zainol still keeps it.
Member rindu skola.
Haha.
Now, i need to find a stable job.
That's it. No poly for me. ):
I need cash now.
Haiz.
Okayy readers.
Just a quick update for today.
Have a nice day earthlings.
Friday, March 5, 2010
♥
FOR YOU.
Everything went haywire yesterday.
I thought i could start something new, but it ended even when i could start doing it.
I've wasted your time yesterday. You know who you are if you're reading this.
I'm truly and terribly sorry about that.
I feel like i've been making people's life hard.
Yes, from childhood, till now.
But, i didn't want it to happen too.
Some people are just bound to control my life.
I don't know till when.
I feel like giving up.
However, i appreciate your thought of recommending me the job.
Like what i told you in the sms yesterday, i'll never forget what you've done for me.
I really appreciae it.
Although i felt scared yesterday, but your smile and jokes kept me calm.
You were still the same, just like the first time i knew you.
I was truly happy to meet you again, from the bottom of my heart.
Maybe it's not my luck to work together with you, although i wanted to.
Whatever it is, i'll always pray for your success in job, to be a successful person one day so that you can open the eyes of the people who do not understand at all.
I'm counting on you.
Seeing you being successful will make me smile, even though if i couldn't be successful like you.
I ain't jealous at all, coz that is not me at all.
So to you, rest assured my prayers are always with you.
May you succeed, insyallah.
This is a post for someone who's been very nice to me since the first time i met him till now. I do hope you'll be reading this, coz i want you to know how i feel.
There's no other way i could express these feelings and thoughts.
I can only do it through my blog.
Goodbye readers.
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
♥
THIRD.
HEY EARTHLINGS.
I'm currently waiting for the YouTube page to load.
And to kill time, i'm blogging at the same time.
The loading is slow. -_-.
I wanna watch "Tasbih Cinta". It's an Indonesian drama.
I'm watching it, coz there's Bayu in it. (:
Nothing much for today.
Woke up at 9am, had to take supplement (coz my mum was next to me, that's why).
Then watched "Santau" in YouTube.
The movie was okayy laa.
It's the same common things happen in Malay community.
Voodoo. Jealousy. Ghost. Possession.
I just watched the movie, to kill time.
I need a job now.
I mean apart from my weekend job.
[insertnamehere] brought me in for his job.
I was surprised to receive his msg yesterday. I'm happy though. (:
And if this is a good job opportunity for me, i might be taking it.
But have to see first, whether it's convincing enough or not.
If i accept the job, i'll take it as a sideline.
Coz i was planning to take up job in SMRT, as they offer good pay.
I don't mind slogging hard for money.
I need to top up my bank account, and pay my uncleared bills and debts.
But the problem is the meeting time to meet [insertnamehere] tomorrow.
Hopefully, mum will give me the permission to go.
To mum & dad, you can't possibly ask me not to work after 6pm right?
Some jobs do have long hours.
You can't just let me stay at home.
I wanna be independent like other people do.
Just let me be please?
I'm begging you.
Coz i really want to lead life like a normal grown-up girl.
I don't wanna be burden to both of you anymore.
Please, i beg you.
Okayy readers.
I wanna get back to YouTube.
Goodnight.
Signing off at 10.30pm.
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
♥
IT'S MARCH ALREADY?
HEY EARTHLINGS.
Time flies, and it's already 2 March 2010.
I didn't go to school today.
Was feeling damn tired, i still haven't recover from flu.
It's been 4 days down with flu.
Haiz.
Stayed at home the whole day.
I felt sleepy, even in the day.
Watched DVD, Alvin and The Chipmunks 2.
Borrowed it from cousin.
I was smiling, while watching the movie.
It's because of THEODORE!
Super cute i tell you!
If only i can own a talking and singing chipmunk..
Aww.
Hahaha.
Since i was alone in the day as mum went out to Geylang, i've to keep my eyes wide open despite being sleepy in front of my lappy.
Once mum came back, i jumped onto my bed and had my afternoon nap for 2 hours.
And yeah, it rained! Yeay!
That made my nap more worth it.
Hahaha.
Woke up at 5pm like a zombie.
Lifeless face.
That was remarked by mum.
I ain't surprised.
I wonder what time i'm gonna sleep tonight, since i've had my nap in the noon.
Best thing is, without any company.
Yeah. I don't like that feeling.
*Sighs*
Finally, all projects and presentations are done.
I can now concentrate on Public Relations exam, which is on 9 March.
It's next Tuesday. -_-
I was satisfied with PR presentation yesterday.
Alhamdulillah, my teammates and me did better this time round, compared to the previous one.
Even the teacher said that.
It's finally gotten off from my chest.
Now, it's theory time.
Sheesh.
Alright readers.
That will be the updates for today.
Signing off now.
Time checked: 9.55pm.
|
.gif)
